I did not know it would take me so long to find my next professional opportunity.
I did know that I made the right decision and that me the professional, is so interwoven with me the personal.
I did not know that I would question realities so intensely, that I became quite afraid of what I was looking at.
I did know that I had so much still to do in my life time.
I did not know that I could feel such loneliness, in such a busy life.
I did not realise there were people around who would step out and step up for me and support me in a way that was way beyond the call of friendship and professionalism.
I did know that I always like to have a job and I am not one who is planning for “retirement”.
I did not know that my “resilience” (which so many people have told me they admire in me) would feel to me like it was raw survival, not resilience.
I did know that I have felt “dark days” and I know how that feels and I also knew I was the only one in complete control of that.
Of course, the obvious ‘lesson’ is that each one of us is the driver of our own life. That can be challenging some days.
I have so much to be thankful for and that Tezza, family and friends stood there with me, for me, beside me and believing in me.
The story of May ’17 – September ’18 is a kaleidoscope of tales that is for another day and another post (or many).
However, one night a while back, after a busy week of both Tez and I working, doing life and doing what grown-ups have to do, we were sitting on the sofa on a Friday night and watching a ‘bubble gum for the brain’ movie (some trashy) and I started to reflect upon that kaleidoscope, looked at him and said, “right now, we are a bit disconnected from our family and friends”. I wondered why we work so hard and have such a wonderful place to enjoy the art of conviviality and not see anyone? I suggested we needed to invite people down for a long table - long lunch.
It was coincidental that the next soonest date, was the weekend of my birthday.
After a few years of being quieter than usual for my annual cake day – festival like celebrations, the 2018 birthday was approached with my preferred ‘birthday festival’ style. Spontaneous invitations were sent at short notice and those who could attend, were able to enjoy some good food and better company.
I MUST make a special mention of the Cheeses and say CORNELIUS CHEESE – you are absolutely amazing !!
#happytastings #makingmemories #debandtez #familyandfriend
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